Dear Mom,

I'm thankful yet not thankful of you giving birth to me to this world. Because being human is such a pain in the ass. I'm born the youngest. That was once told the unwanted child. My grandma told me that my aunt wanted a daughter as she only has a son, grandma told me you wanted to give me to my aunt but it was stopped by my father. It's pretty scary as it may somehow change our life. I don't know if you and dad ever regret making this decision but I'm thanking to be in this family.

I know I'm not a good daughter, I'm not a sweet talk person. I talk no respect to you and dad. I yell at you, throw my temper at you.
(My parents is like most Singaporean parents. The Aunty/Uncle kind. Not the Professional, Studied a lot kind. Some times I wish my parents are like those parents with 'younger' mind-set, that will always support their children. When I was young I'm very envious of those kids who went to all sorts of lesson. example like ballet, piano lesson etc. I wish my parents had sent me for these lesson so that at least I can have many talents when I grow up. Because now I don't have a talent. Really. Like I don't know what my strength were.)

Being the youngest I have dad's attention. He is the best father I could ever wish for. As for you mom I think you treated us(me and my sisters) equally. You like to put your ideas into my head. what you like you will think that I like it too. Growing up , I always feel closer to dad but not you. you're such a stingy person. You won't buy me the things that I want. You will always say NO. And yet you bought so many rubbish and stuffed it at home! 
(In my memory was during Pirmary1 I walked to school on my own. So more and more I became independent and I don't like my parents to know about my school life. I don't even like them coming to my school and meeting my friends. 
I have no curfew in my school days. So I like to stay in school till very late or until the school gate closes. Spending time with my friends is better then going home and spend time with my mom.)

You always force me to so things that I don't like. Like going to church and Saturday tuition. When I just want to spent time with Dad and Sisters. Talking about church, It's not that I don't believe in Jesus Christ or anything, Just that "that" church we went to , I just doesn't seems to click with the same aged youths. Maybe no topic to say or anything I don't know. I just don't feel that I belong there. I'm always so eager to go straight home or out after church everything. When I was young you will drag me to go. Since then When I got older and have my own opinion. I decided to stop going. so now I won't say I'm a Christian. My mother is a Christian. But still that doesn't mean I don't believe in Jesus. I'm not the VERY into Christ person. My mom is crazy about Christ. She likes to go church every single day.

Since the day you stopped working, You've changed so much! so lazy and unhealthy. I don't know where you get your wired ideas from but please stop making this house worse.

OK cut the "letter" short.

I want to say that I don't like this house. This messy with no home feeling house. This house is so messy thanks to all your rubbish. We don't even have space to walk. (her things touches the ceiling , I AM NO KIDDING) Why don't you want to throw away all the unwanted stuff? Give it free to people?! That would be great. Whenever we ask you to tidy up the space and throw away your rubbish. You get angry and starting scolding us. Ya I know this is NOT MY HOUSE. IT'S YOUR HOUSE.... Ok I don't have the right to say anything.

You always say faster get married and get your own house. Don't live here forever. Honestly EVERY SINGLE day I'm thinking of it. BUT doesn't mean I HAVE TO GET MARRIED TO GET MY OWN HOUSE. THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED RENT A ROOM OR A APARTMENT!

The reason why I studied culinary is because your cooking scares me / us. Ever since I started learning cooking. I tasted what good food is. And now I like to cook my own meals. So all those mother cooked meals didn't apply to me.

Saying things that somehow hurt you doesn't mean that I don't like you. I just wish that you can wake up to reality and stop living in your own bubble.
I wish that this house can be clean and you finally decided to throw away your rubbish.

I don't know why I'm always so emotional stress around my family . In my mind there is always someone telling me to get out of here. GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. Go somewhere far away.
I swear to myself what I  want to earn tons of money and just migrate aboard!

Sincerely,
Clarissa Teo
  

Dear Mom,

I'm thankful yet not thankful of you giving birth to me to this world. Because being human is such a pain in the ass. I'm born the youngest. That was once told the unwanted child. My grandma told me that my aunt wanted a daughter as she only has a son, grandma told me you wanted to give me to my aunt but it was stopped by my father. It's pretty scary as it may somehow change our life. I don't know if you and dad ever regret making this decision but I'm thanking to be in this family.

I know I'm not a good daughter, I'm not a sweet talk person. I talk no respect to you and dad. I yell at you, throw my temper at you.
(My parents is like most Singaporean parents. The Aunty/Uncle kind. Not the Professional, Studied a lot kind. Some times I wish my parents are like those parents with 'younger' mind-set, that will always support their children. When I was young I'm very envious of those kids who went to all sorts of lesson. example like ballet, piano lesson etc. I wish my parents had sent me for these lesson so that at least I can have many talents when I grow up. Because now I don't have a talent. Really. Like I don't know what my strength were.)

Being the youngest I have dad's attention. He is the best father I could ever wish for. As for you mom I think you treated us(me and my sisters) equally. You like to put your ideas into my head. what you like you will think that I like it too. Growing up , I always feel closer to dad but not you. you're such a stingy person. You won't buy me the things that I want. You will always say NO. And yet you bought so many rubbish and stuffed it at home! 
(In my memory was during Pirmary1 I walked to school on my own. So more and more I became independent and I don't like my parents to know about my school life. I don't even like them coming to my school and meeting my friends. 
I have no curfew in my school days. So I like to stay in school till very late or until the school gate closes. Spending time with my friends is better then going home and spend time with my mom.)

You always force me to so things that I don't like. Like going to church and Saturday tuition. When I just want to spent time with Dad and Sisters. Talking about church, It's not that I don't believe in Jesus Christ or anything, Just that "that" church we went to , I just doesn't seems to click with the same aged youths. Maybe no topic to say or anything I don't know. I just don't feel that I belong there. I'm always so eager to go straight home or out after church everything. When I was young you will drag me to go. Since then When I got older and have my own opinion. I decided to stop going. so now I won't say I'm a Christian. My mother is a Christian. But still that doesn't mean I don't believe in Jesus. I'm not the VERY into Christ person. My mom is crazy about Christ. She likes to go church every single day.

Since the day you stopped working, You've changed so much! so lazy and unhealthy. I don't know where you get your wired ideas from but please stop making this house worse.

OK cut the "letter" short.

I want to say that I don't like this house. This messy with no home feeling house. This house is so messy thanks to all your rubbish. We don't even have space to walk. (her things touches the ceiling , I AM NO KIDDING) Why don't you want to throw away all the unwanted stuff? Give it free to people?! That would be great. Whenever we ask you to tidy up the space and throw away your rubbish. You get angry and starting scolding us. Ya I know this is NOT MY HOUSE. IT'S YOUR HOUSE.... Ok I don't have the right to say anything.

You always say faster get married and get your own house. Don't live here forever. Honestly EVERY SINGLE day I'm thinking of it. BUT doesn't mean I HAVE TO GET MARRIED TO GET MY OWN HOUSE. THERE IS SOMETHING CALLED RENT A ROOM OR A APARTMENT!

The reason why I studied culinary is because your cooking scares me / us. Ever since I started learning cooking. I tasted what good food is. And now I like to cook my own meals. So all those mother cooked meals didn't apply to me.

Saying things that somehow hurt you doesn't mean that I don't like you. I just wish that you can wake up to reality and stop living in your own bubble.
I wish that this house can be clean and you finally decided to throw away your rubbish.

I don't know why I'm always so emotional stress around my family . In my mind there is always someone telling me to get out of here. GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. Go somewhere far away.
I swear to myself what I  want to earn tons of money and just migrate aboard!

Sincerely,
Clarissa Teo